I am still rather tired, however, I have decided to get back in shape anyway. I went to yoga yesterday and it felt wonderful! I really need that control, to do something positive. I’ve let the chemo drugs have control and I am done with that. I also walked 3 miles today but .75 of those 3 miles I actually ran! It was really hard but running felt so good. Hopefully I will sleep well tonight!


Today my Dad headed back home. He thinks that he didn’t do enough but just coming was enough! Plus, he vacuumed which was impressive. We will miss having him around as we are back on our own. I’m pleased that I made it to both of my kid’s soccer games today and went for a walk when I got home. I’m guessing that I will fall asleep early tonight but that is okay. I hope tomorrow is another positive day.

AC Infusion Number 4

On Monday I had my fourth infusion of AC chemotherapy. 4 out of 4 done. I really don’t want to do that again.  Yesterday was the worst day and I am gradually starting to feel better. It is hard to stay positive though. My white cell counts are lower than they have ever been which worries me. I’m also nervous about the next stage of treatment. I knew that I would be starting herceptin but I failed to realize that I would also receive taxotere, another chemotherapy drug, at the same time. I just want to say no. I want to say that I have had enough. But, I am not a doctor. How do I say that with any confidence? I just want to go back to actually living. I am tired of feeling sick. I am tired of sitting in a chair. I am tired of missing my kids activities.


Well, tomorrow is the last chemo infusion. I can’t wait to get it done but I also dread it. Today was a good day though. I went for a walk with my Dad and even ran for a bit. I also took the kids out on their scooter.  I’m tired but it was worth it.

I’m a Mom!

Okay, so I have been a mom for awhile now but I have not felt like much of one since my mastectomy surgery. My husband has a cold so I have needed to do more today. But, I am proud. I have my daughter’s lunch ready for camp tomorrow, I cooked dinner and fed the three of us, and they have both showered! I’m tired now but I really only have the tuck-in to go. Yeahme!  I probably owe it all to that nap I took earlier today.


I am so thankful for good friends. They have helped us more than I would have expected. Even when I think that I am asking too much, they are still there and willing. I hope that I can be just as generous should they ever need my help.

Today was my check-up. One week before my last AC treatment. My blood work still looks good. I still have fluid in my ears from last week’s ear infection but they fluid levels are lower. The fluid could be related to allergies from all the pollen in the air. I just want it to clear and go away. I just want to finish chemo. I also had to rate my level of fatigue which was really hard to do. I decided to go with a 7/10. It is somewhat similiar to being a new mom…walking around in a fog. I wonder how long it will take post-chemo for the fatigue to get better. I have things to do…races to run.  🙂